Alive

 Life can not bear the light, can accept the pain

Before I jumped into that world, I still implied that I should be able to express what I wanted to say intellectually, and to evaluate the work objectively. Until I turned over the last page, I gradually lost patience in Yu Hua's quiet pen and ink. I even couldn't wait to write something. I didn't need to be full of tension but I could make others feel my enthusiasm at this moment.

I remember someone said; When we know that suffering is a normal part of life and that trouble and pain always accompany life, there is no need for us to feel sorry for ourselves. However, in To Live, I see the suffering different from Cao Wenxuan's, which is accompanied by the blessing of your life, connected to a part of the body, even more important than food and use. Yu Hua turned the nib dexterously, again and again the fu expensive life to push the corner of the alley. Just when you think he's going to start his life over again, fate dances. I often think that when God closes a door for you, he opens a window, so I often wait for good luck when I am in trouble, as life's compensation. It was not until I had followed Fugui down the salt-strewn road, touching his almost stiff back, that I realized that the normality of life was the rubble that suddenly lay in front of me. It makes you fall and bleed but it reminds you that you're still alive.

There's a passage in the novel that goes like this; "He's the kind of person who can see what he used to look like, he can see exactly how he walked when he was younger, and he can even see how he's aged." After experiencing life and death, Fugui may also have understood that people can come to this world to walk this experience is enough. On the day of his wife's death, Zhuangzi sat cross-legged and sang in a bowl. It is true that life and death are one, and we need neither rejoice in new birth nor grieve in death. People around you come and go and come again, even if you hold it tight, you will always slip through your fingers. Fu Gui all the way to come trembling, experienced the death of his wife to send white hair black hair and finally an old cow to do the company. I seemed to wander freely through the blissful past, but when I closed the book my heart was still vaguely unhappy. I know it is the young and impulsive blood in my body is boiling, because in this beautiful age, what we are tired of is exactly what Fugui yearns to pursue all his life.

Do not say that Yu Hua's words are cold ah, in my opinion, "alive" also has its warm place. Yu Hua gave Fu Gui a friend; They were grateful to each other, and they hated each other, but neither could abandon the other, and neither had reason to complain about the other. This is fate. Man lives for the sake of living itself, not for the sake of anything but living. Therefore, people love introspection, introspection of the previous second of their own and from introspection to define things right and wrong. We can lose love to lose rely on and jump, but can not wake up to accept any close skin pain. When you worry about what others think, you forget that you don't have much time to waste. This is not a negative and selfish idea, I just want to find some useful truth in Yu Hua's pen and ink. I don't want to wait until I'm as old as Fugui before I know what it means to be human. With the rapid rotation of the years, I would rather let nature take its course and integrate with life than be confused and consumed by the outside world. Good and bad, happy and sad, hope and disappointment all can be accepted according to the single, not surprised, sad and happy not in the shape of the color in the heart, standing on the same position with nature to see themselves, in fact, everything is really very simple.

Because we are alive, so we can set aside some time to worry about life, to pursue what we want. But most of the time they are confused, we need to survive first and then to produce, live. So when what you need or want doesn't come true, don't get frustrated and frustrated easily. Because you've done one of the most meaningful things you can do in your life, which is to live.